i'm in a daze.couldnt figure out what i did was right or wrong. i felt bad for him.. or maybe i'm not. Ben held a party at his house.. that night, i actually got drunk! Ben called my parents telling them that i was sleeping over. that was worst sleepover i had! i remembered hugging and kissing Ben before going to bed. But nothing actually happen. Just slept next to Ben. well, whatever.. i feel weird when i meet up with Ben now. Maybe we'll stop meeting each other for the time being.. whenever i'm with Ben, i feel all fucked up. i dont know how i should feel.. angry? happy? sigh.. well, here's the photo i took with Ben and his friends during the party.

oh and, i'm sorry.